PARENTING REBOOTED

Pursuit

You knew she didn’t really know what love was

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“Mom?” she asks. “Are you okay?”

“Yes, honey.”

“What are you looking for?”

That’s when you realize you’ve been staring blankly into the open refrigerator, trying to figure out where to put the pencil.

“Whatever, weirdo,” she says as she huffs and leaves the kitchen.

That’s when you decide you’re ordering pizza for dinner.

“Sweetheart?” you yell. She doesn’t respond. She’s only fourteen, you remind yourself. Where did we get off track?

Maybe it was when Jeff broke up with her. I love him, she had told you. You knew she didn’t really know what love was. She thought it was all about fun and likes and little whispering text messages that crept their way into her bedroom.

Love is pursuit, you had told her. It is about someone chasing you when you aren’t worth chasing. It is about someone who stays with you when it would be easier to leave.

Reboot.

“Mom?” she asks. “Are you okay?”

“Yes, honey.”

“What are you looking for?”

That’s when you realize… she isn’t asking about food. You close the refrigerator, lock eyes with her and cup her supple cheeks in your palms.

“I’m looking for you.

She rolls her eyes, but as the lines turn up at the corners of her mouth, you know. It was exactly the right thing to say.

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Coiner of Centinas and Pentinas, Jim died in 2076 from either trying to kill a spider while driving or from eating too many burritos. jataylorwrites.com

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